Knowledge is experience

“In the end, nobody hears more out of things, including books, than he knows already. For that to which one lacks from experience, one has no ears.” – Friedrich Nietzsche, 


Prayer of the Disatisfied Sex Worker

(One of my non-rhyming poems, inspired by research I did on prostitution and sex slavery. Estimated 16 million sex slaves alone, not including prostitutes who aren’t ‘slaves.’ But ‘choice’ and ‘slave’ are very slippery, grey, vague terms in the sex worker industry).

“Prayer of the Dissatisfied Sex Worker”

Don’t buy me.

Please don’t let me be bought again,

Not yet another night, not yet another hour.

Their eyes gawk at me;

I am their idol

An idol, indeed, in my heart’s feeling…

      cold, lifeless, stone, with silver overlay

Oh, they love their idolatry, not me.

How shamefully they treat me, their goddess,

Touch of so many, verbs of the mean,

Sure guys, come in…

     I’ll be silent or give you a little laugh,

     A moan or squeak to make you feel satisfied that you made me so,

    Spare me your toxic whispers and sweaty hands,

    You don’t hear my moans and squeaks and cries when I’m alone,

     Not of laughs, but of tears.

To be the one of just one, oh God, but I can’t get a good one,

Go ahead pimps, have you fun,

But please, tonight,

Someone else, somewhere else,

That I may cry a little again…

    Over all the innocence I’ve lost,

     All the things I wish I’d never seen,

     All those words I long to never hear again,

Please for one night, God, let them not come.

Here is an excerpt from Fyodor Dostoevsky’s  Notes from Underground, (page 71 of Kaufman’s translation in Existentialism: From Dostoevsky to Sarte) a profound work that served as part of the inspiration for this blog’s title. Take note of the last half- especially the end.

Man is stupid, you know, phenomenally stupid; or rather, he is not all stupid, but he is so ungrateful that you could not find another like him in all creation. I, for instance, would not be in the least surprised if all of a sudden, o propos, of nothing, in the midst of general prosperity a gentleman with an ignoble, or rather with a reactionary and ironical, countenance were to arise and, putting his arms akimbo, say to us all: ‘I say, gentlemen, hadn’t we better kick over the whole show and scatter rationalism to the winds, simply to send these logarithms to the devil, and to enable us to live once more at our own sweet foolish will?’ That again would not matter, but what is annoying is that he would be sure to find followers — such is the nature of man. And all for the most foolish reason, which, one would think, was hardly worth mentioning: that is, that man everywhere and at all times, whoever he may be, has preferred to act as he chose and not in the least as his reason and advantage dictated. And one may choose what is contrary to one’s own interests, and sometimes one positively ought (that is my idea). One’s own free unfettered choice, one’s own caprice, however wild it may be, one’s own fancy worked up at times to a frenzy — is that very ‘most advantageous advantage’ which we have overlooked.


Nature’s cruelty.

In America, the beach is the abode of the wealthy. In the Philippines, the beach is the abode of the fisherman, the poor… Why didn’t the storm hit those who were better able to deal with it. No seawall here. Just a beach and houses of wood. Wordless pain.

Missiles come to Syria

Missiles flow into Syria, risk falling into hands of al Qaeda

The world’s silence on massacre will lead to massacre of themselves. If the world, the US, the UN, NATO whoever would have helped in the beginning, there would not be so many angry young men becoming terrorists and getting missiles to defend themselves against the regime’s planes. The Syrian people are our allies, the chance for a free democracy and more peace. The US hung them out to dry die, and we’re surprised when they rise up to defend themselves?


Snowden blows smoke

This guy’s a traitor to his country. This conclusion is unavoidable when you know the facts. What’s worse is that Snowden makes believe he’s a hero, one that didn’t betray his country at all, “Freedom of information” I’m a “whistle-blower” and all that. 

To hell with excuses. He could have used other means to ‘whistle-blow’ without helping Al Qaeda and harming the reputation of the United States around the world. Obama is right. He’s a hacker, or if not a hacker, a hack.
I can respect a traitor who’s honest that he’s a traitor – but he refuses to own up to it. Snowden is either in la-la land or is a masterful liar. I mean, come-on, he has plenty of ammo – the US is an evil imperialist power, capitalist ideology is ruining the world, etc, etc. But he doesn’t use that logic. He just wants people to like him. He wants to be seen as both a good American and a citizen of the world when he is neither. People-pleasers are a bane to the world. And the US goverment hired one. That was a dumb decision. Where did they get this guy, Hollywood? 

I’ll end by quoting what a comment on the above article said, named “mountainlady”

Edward Snowden is an attention hungry liar and cheat. I think you should all form a little fan club and nominate him for pop star of the year. He has caused his country and his family unnecessary grief and embarrassment. If he really cared about the people of America he would have used channels available in his own country for dealing with suspected over reach of a government agency. He didn’t. He went to the first newspaper willing to print his story and his picture. First England…. they must have gotten tired of him because he moved on and now he’ calling them names as well. Now Germany. I’m sure he gets a nice little check every time he has a new “revelation”. If this is the kind of man American young people want to hero worship…. the country’s future may indeed be in grave danger.


New left coming

I talked to a socialist yesterday. He ran a club at a university, sitting at a table full of communist and socialist literature.

Socialism is coming. The next generation of youth are predicted to trample both Reagan conservative ideology and the Clintonian one.

We like socialism. But will it work? I asked him if socialism happens within a democracy. He said yes. I asked him if it would work in American government, and he said no. So for socialism to work in the US, the Constitution and whole government should be changed? He didn’t know. Maybe. Right now, they just are trying to unite labor.

There would have to be massive social change and upheaval for socialism to happen in America. Conservatives will say that Dems are socialists – they’re really not. But some are. And more will be if the prediction of the “new left” is correct.

The question is, are socialists also relativists, or moral absolutists. I could say that socialism works well in Europe, but not in America.If they are absolute, they will certainly want this perfect socialist model in America too.

But no. That can’t happen. We need those socialists, this vocal minority to make everyone else realize what kind of government we have, and the ideal government our system should be. They keep things honest. But take over? Demolish our hard-won American capitalist-style democracy? That’s going too far.